My heart literally sinks
I feel so empty
Neither happy nor sad
Just nothing
That feeling when you don’t even know what the fuck you’re feeling anymore
Those flashbacks keep coming back
Nothing I can do other than stay strong 
The weird thing is, I want to cry
But the tears just won't come out
I don't have any shoulder to cry on
but I know, I will always have the floor to suujud 
Inshaallah.